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Upon the Horrifying Realization My Oldest Child is a Grown-Up 

I sat in a soft chair on the Mezzanine of the exquisite Joseph Smith Memorial Building in Salt Lake City and cried as I watched the back of your 18-year-old person walk to the elevators and disappear to floor 9. Son, you may wonder why I cried. You've had other jobs. This should have been no different. But it was. It was very different. You see, I realized today you're a grown-up. You may argue that 18 is not a grown-up but see why I got all choked up today and then convince me you haven't grown up yet. 
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Perfectionism & Chipped Nail Polish 

How do you know if you're a perfectionist? Here are some statements and behaviors that might be a red flag:
  • Go big or go home. 
  • If you want it done right you have to do it yourself.
  • I like to do things what I call the "right way". 
  • I procrastinate because I want to have the time to do it perfectly.
  • My value is directly tied to what I accomplish.
  • Others are valuable only to the level that they achieve important things.
  • It is unacceptable to make mistakes.
  • Unless I am the best I am…
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On Loving An Older Man 

I held his face for a few seconds and looked into his calico eyes. He smiled. It was hard not to get lost in the rugged, hard-earned smile lines borne of 50+ years of experience. Age and experience are attractive. He is a beautiful man, I thought between kissing his cheek and scrunching his salt-and-pepper curls on the back of his head. Our foreheads touched and we sat there with our eyes closed just taking it in- the history, the ups, the downs, the friendship, the long, hard road that led to our…Read more